Sunday, June 13, 2010

A poem

Before you read this poem, you should know that my poetry is not exactly 'avant garde'. In fact, it is old fashioned in terms of style and to a certain extent, even subject matter. But I cannot help myself since I am obsessed with the Old Ones and their words and raspy voices glide down over a century or two to speak to me in my dreams. Furthermore, here at Flowers of Sulfur, I find myself in the company of much more experienced poets, so I implore you not to be, too disappointed....

Could This Be My Dying Hour


What am I to her
but a mere vestige
of a memory long ago
banished to an attic
of lost and discolored
artifacts.

How would she feel
if by chance she came
upon my photograph,
faded and frayed
at the edges and abandoned
by time itself?

Would she frown
at the remembrance
of events best forgotten
and curse the phantoms
of the past disrespecting
her cherished serenity?

Would she forgive me now
that her hair is silvery grey
and the deep black
velvet mane
has slowly over the years,
simply faded away?

These questions I ask
clearly betray,
to me my guilty conscience,
heavily compounded
by a fear that breaks
my cold and calculated reticence.

How strange that Time
which seemed to be
in youth, an eternity,
has miraculously shrunk
into a finiteness through which
I gape in horror-
in horror at my own,
mortality.







Saturday, June 12, 2010

sometimes when i (01-24-10)

dip it once
dip it twice
dip it again and again


fill one hole
fill two holes
fill all the holes


                                       smoothing a thick coat of wax on each half
the candlemaker tempting the machine full of long
holes single piston serving stripped of its covering
used for cooling some of this heat may be transferred
from the air to the body


turtle
on top of
turtle
on top of
turtle
on top of
turtle
on top of
turtle

Friday, June 11, 2010

The Third Eye



'The Third Eye'
Acrylic on paper

(First painting I ever sold)

3 poems by John Grochalski

what you’ll get out of it

a nice night
in brooklyn
a good day out
in manhattan
an all right movie
some beer
in a favorite old bar
and this fine thai
dinner
along 3rd avenue.
maybe that’s what
your poetry is lacking
like you could move
away from the darker themes
and still write straightforward poems
but maybe every once
in a while it could be a little
bit bright.
not to sound like an optimist
or anything
and i know your influences
never really looked
on the bright side of things
but it’s a nice night
in brooklyn
and we had a good day out
in manhattan
the movie was actually pretty good
even if it preached to the choir
and the old bar wasn’t
as crowded with college assholes
as we thought
and this is a fine thai meal
that we are having
what’s that wine called again?
but anyway i think you should
write a poem about this moment
if you want to
and maybe look at the positive side
of it
instead of searching for the usual
stuff that ends up in your poetry.
maybe just give it a shot
this one time.
but you’ll see that couple fighting over
there
or you’ll think about the assholes
with their phones at the theater
or that guy that blocked our seats
in the bar
and how we had to stop a few times
so that you could take a shit
because of your stomach
or the fact that new york city
doesn’t care about its literary history
and that’s all you’ll get
out of any of it.


a good friend wherever

life
the two-bit louse
grabs me
and moves me again.
it leaves me aimless
and amongst strange faces
with ugly intent.
i pass an italian grocery
in a mostly unfamiliar
strip mall,
and the smell of new bread
and fresh sausage
holds me
for a second,
until i remember
the liquor store next door,
where they have
my wine for tonight,
and a couple of bottles
of scotch
for the rest of it.
the liquor store.
like the same old friend
in any city or town
that i’ve ever been to.
the good friend.
the ones who doesn’t call
too much,
or bother me with questions,
but will just sit quietly
with me,
a little bit,
always knowing what i want
without me having
to ask.



genius at work

i wonder what rabalais
would do in a moment like this

what would fante say?

hamsun?

hemingway?

i sit back and listen to the radio
wondering how anne sexton would
capture this moment

the kind of spin that f. scott
would put on it

i think i know what shakespeare
would do

kerouac would set his typer
going like a machine gun

or was that bukowski?

whitman would howl
and jeffers would shut the door
to the word

villon would steal this moment

so might jean genet

in a moment like this
i think about what all the great ones
would do

then i update my profile picture
on facebook

i read a celebrity gossip site
look at old lady porn
and wonder what’s to eat
in the fridge.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Pantoum to an Aging Father

Let's offer up our prayers to a finicky Father
who sits in his segregated heaven, rocking
away senility on that rickety chair
with a spare, tall back wrapped in striped wool blankets.

Who sits in his segregated heaven, rocking?
Our Father, keeping his heart warm against the gusts.
With a spare, tall back wrapped in striped wool blankets
perfectly square (but too small to share with others),

our Father's keeping his heart warm. Against the gusts
and idling time, again he stays busy carving figures
perfectly square but too small to share. With others,
these tokens will help the faithful remain fertile

and idling. Time again, he keeps busy carving figures
on the edges of a pesky map. Mad for expansion,
these tokens will help the faithful. "Remain fertile!"
Father cautions, as he watches a big screen TV.

On the edges of a pesky map mad for expansion,
many errant souls who wander are unable to hear
Father's cautions. As he watches a big screen TV,
the devil's slipping him a low-ball offer to buy

many errant souls. Who wander are unable to hear
news heaven's economy is still struggling, and
the devil's slipping him. A low-ball offer to buy,
our aging Father mulls over hot oatmeal and tea.

the shortest distance

mysterious mounds tingle to
an affectionate touch
(extra long fingers)

dead-end double d expressway
to my devotional moat
(lemon flavored lube)

hesitant sentences
best said with scent
(incense cult)

the fluid spirit rushes to
the stickiest end
(pinecone love)

i tend to interpret the nuances
of others without words
(just give up)

is it a mirage?
a leisurely anarchy?
                                         (run)

Plasma


"Plasma"
2010
watercolour, ink on paper.

misplaced camels

Can you hide your fatality behind furnishing?
she asks me in the pasty lodgings
wind lingers in her curtains I feel the
breeze under my costume and shake my skull
as I sit down on the davenport
abhorrence is beta sheets coming together in plasma
carroty woman

churn behind the shut entrance next to me
the ocean puts me out cool fluid
my gentleman awaits
misplaced camel looking at prairie dunes no fortune at all


written on vacation on a grassy beach in Washington state.

Monday, June 7, 2010

avicide...

.
.
when your nightingale songs
are rewarded with a golden cage
and
your peacock paintings
deprive you of your private sky
;
when you cannot find any fish
to feed your seagull soul
but
folly, fake, and foul galore
;
when there's no mountain or any haven
for your seclusion eagle
and
your cherished bonds
unwillingly kill your migratory skylarks
;
when you cannot rejoice in
the hustle and bustle of everyday sparrows
and
fear the hungry hunters of graceful patridges
as much as
the caring pamperers of homely chickens
;
when flattering mouths look down upon
your fluttering nightly doves
and
cumulative honking cars
mute your swan solos
;
when nobody believes in
phoenixes and simorghs anymore
and
you find nowhere to hide and hatch
the eggs of your truth
except in your eyes
;
be
the adapting
omnivorous
monotonous
inconspicuous
black-eyed
crow
.
.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Where my mind wanders








'Studies- Hands, What lies Beneath'
Pen and Ink+ Acrylic on paper

Friday, June 4, 2010


The Sound and the Fury
digital photo

I took this over the winter, this was during the pre-dawn light. I feel that it adds to the atmosphere, and gives a graying grainy quality that appeals to me.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Plumes

A plume should be a thing lovely and light
dancing violet as it's fanned
at the flanks of the blue
bird-of-paradise
who hangs limberly
to solicit a mate

It should curl
blinding white at the back
of the puffy Samoyed
prancing fancy to please a master
who also preens on the oval
of a sawdust track

It should flop
red at the top of gold-painted tin
helmet awry on the head
of an aspiring actor
who plays centurion for tips
outside a mobbed Colosseum

It should spray
as clear and cooling drops out
the copper mouth of a grass-snake
green hose uncoiled by
the sneaky dad who tickles
giggles from sweaty kids

It should flutter
gray at the tail end of a quill
bouncing to the frenzied
jottings of an anachronistic
frump who takes the pain to outfit
himself far too seriously

A plume should not be a thing of plague
riding currents kissed by taint-
sweet crude blasted from a wound
gouged in the crust
of a frigid deep to feed
our shallow lust for eases

It shouldn't choke

It shouldn't muck

It shouldn't tar

It can't help
poisoning that last pretense
we cared about anything,
be it plumed or not, but
the finality of
a bottom line

Saturday, May 29, 2010

mr. crankypants memos a wannabeat

my dear young wannabeat:

not that your boyish cock is not real gone
but here's a purple pose from rewound gone:

our acid faces dripping waxed and wounded
in the cut glass crusted dusted mirror
before you were a throbbing mucous dollar shot
on a spilling thrill to your mommy egg

yelling

and yellowed
and scrambled
and bubbled in the raving dawn.

Neal would milk his chrome cruise
into your trim virgin caddy knot

zippo your butt and slam his throttle

until the stars rolled back in your head

then howl akimbo at your awkward whimper
elbowed and thighed and posed

mad chattering the moon on further
to the happy squirt of dawn's early fix.

in summary,
a pale echo of his mad moon wail,
your map is cute but cuts no edge-

his crackle would split your skull

wistfully yours,

mr. crankypants

p.s.
an old man in a dry month, etc.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Planned Obsolescence


"Planned Obsolescence"
Rusted Iron and Acrylic on Canvas - 2010

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

ruby, part 3

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Monday, May 24, 2010

words...

.
some words
.
.
.
crush
down
our
soul
into
p.....i.....e.....c.....e.....s
cruelly stamp it on the ground

.
.
.

some words
.
.
.
o
hug
r
soul
kindly give..........it.........wings to fly
.
othose..........or..........these
?
oour choice
makes
.war............or..........peace
.

Memories of that Stormy Night


"Memories of that Stormy Night"
Watercolour and Ink
Thomas Sheridan - 2010

from rain to river


05 - 23 - 2010
from rain to river
14" x 11"
acrylic paint - found images - canvas panel

~ This is my favorite piece from the series (Series Entitled: Process and Connection)that I just finished this morning.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

The Ever Decreasing Circles - Requiem for a Narcissist Approaching Middle Age


The Ever Decreasing Circles - Requiem for a Narcissist Approaching Middle Age
Thomas Sheridan
Watercolour and Ink - 2008

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Termina

Brown Recluse sails the morning thread,
droops down with the peony, ascends
a reaching clematis: open and gloried blue
angel-- creeper still slick with night wet.
There is no place that the weaver won't
reach; its spinnerets are furiously graced.

And there is nothing that will wake
you now that the side rails have been lowered,
your clutching hand removed.
When you left, your face became a tunnel,
narrow and lightless; your mouth an entry only.